Thursday, August 4, 2016
I didn't sure what should I do. Every decision is too painful to make. Every step is tiring. Grown up is tiring. All you do is make decisions, make mistakes, learn by mistake. Repeat and repeat. On and on. Sometimes you feel lonely, sometimes you feel so strong but suddenly you can cry without any reason. Maybe this heart can't bear any pain.
I'm standing alone here, looking them. I'm asking for myself why this happen and how it happen. I just want fix but I just can't. Maybe there is a mistake that can't be fix. I don't know. Maybe I should pretend to be fine and everything was alright.
For no reason, I feel so empty. Even though there are so many people here yet I'm feel so alone. It not like I want a lover or what. I just need someone to listen my stories, my worries, my secrets. Hug me when I'm sad. Cheer me up when I'm down.
I wanna be strong. I wanna be successful. I wanna to be loved also. I don't want cry without any reason. I don't want give up all the time. I don't want to be lonely also.